HaiX...Why WHY WHY!!!Why muz you give me hope and then take it away from me..Why muz you do that...I am not a toy...You realli make me feel lyk crying..you know that...Feel like crying yet i can't do it..I can't hide myself in a room and cry..I am a guy..I am not like a sissy girl who does that...HOw i wish i was a girl and i can cry all i want.... I can only tell myself that one day i will have you back..Then i will feel better..Even that doesn't make mi feel good..As i type my heart, i can feel as thou there is a knife slashing my heart...slowly and painfully..i have to go through the same pathetic process TWICE!!How stupid of me to think that i could still be with you...Every night without fail ..i would dream of what will happen the next day or even in the future...HaiX..i would rather you reject mi once and for all...At least i can si Xin...I realli dunno what to do...Exam are coming...yet i still can't concentrate...WHat should i do!!!!!!